first post.

so here I am.
I decided that I needed a blog because I just have so many creative ideas that need to be jotted down somewhere, hence the blog :)

so my first post is going to be a letter, to someone that I just can't get out of my head, or out of my life. & Most times I don't want this person to, but others seem to think that maybe it'd be a good idea...

hey you,
It really makes me sad how much people underestimate you. When I look at you I see brilliance, all of your dreams and aspirations just waiting to burst out of you. I don't just see someone who's lost in this world, who's not worth my time. I just know that God has a reason why you're in my life, but sometimes it's just hard for me. All of the emotions inside of me just wanting to pour out from the depths of my soul. But you already knew this about me, and you abused it. Maybe you didn't realize that you were doing it at the time, but you really hurt me. Stepped on my heart, but you didn't break it. & I guess that's why I can forgive so easily. It's not like I see you as "the one", I don't even think that you're good enough for me. But there's just something about you that I haven't gotten just yet. & when I think about it, I really don't want you out of my life. So I guess I'm just setting myself up for heartbreak. I know that things are never going to turn out the way that I have built up inside of me and yearned for. I don't even think I yearn for them anymore. But, I just know that God has a bigger plan, people may not understand it. Heck, people don't even understand me for the most part. So I guess rather than trying to figure out what I really feel, and over-analyze every word that is said I'm just going to accept it. You're probably going to be a huge part of my life somehow, whether it just be a lesson, a memory, or a start to a longtime friendship; it's just better not to question it.

love, me.